stayed at home for the whole day. woke up at 12 this afternoon. was really tired as i was chatting on the phone with darlink last night. watching korean drama most of the time. and had some unhappiness today though. same old problems but yeah.. i just remained silent. wells.. didnt study at all. my homework are incomplete. i just dont really wanna think about studies. and im slacking during the weekends which i aint supposed to. =p

im completely stressed up. i know i shouldnt be wasting time on here since i dont have enough time to complete what i should be doing. but i need a break and i really do. i gonna complain here. complained to chowfei already and its not enough for me. im having a huge workload which i cant take it. im physically and mentally tired. i need to complete econs reflections plus read up on test, geo essay which consists of 25m and i dont have the article at all while others have? and gp research plus the book which is like super thick? whats more theres maths tutorial.. i dont even know the basics of that chapter not even a SINGLE thing and expects me to do the tutorial by mon? plus 2 geo projects to do. all these, except for the projects, have to be handed in on mon. which means i need to complete during this two days. AHH im REALLY going to be CRAZY. its not that difficult, its just i dont know A THING at all yet i have to do it. do you know how it feels? im like going to cry. ): and im lost. so lost that i dont know what i should do.

i find it hard to adapt thou. danceworks semi-finals on 26feb. and its like a month away and we need to practice a lot. i dont know if i should be happy about this. i feel theres no life now. everyday's work. i wanna go for a swim. but its gonna take up my time. ahhhhh. kill me.

um. i think i've been sleeping during school today. cant really remember what i had learnt. but i remember lit tutorial. ahhaas. mrs tan looks really like the actress we saw on tv. and we were giggling and laughing. xiutian made me laugh lors. i was like laughing loudly and its super hilarious that i had tears in my eyes. we girls were giggling away too as we tryin to spread the msg around. so fun kaes! mrs tan was puzzled and in the end i told her. lols. took bus with amy right after school. then arrived at je so went to find darlink. she recommended me some clothes and in the end bought a skirt. later went to jec and read up lectures notes. then binghong came so had dinner with him. chatted thru. oh yeah. while we were walking met a super cute lil boy. he's like 1/5 of my height okae. and i said so cuteee and he turned to look at me.. and HE FELL? i think because he was frightened seeing someone so tall beside him. LOL! i didnt touch him okae and he fell just like this. i quickly carried him up. else his grandpa will say i bad girl. hahas. so cute kaes.. and so funny. i love kids! AHAHHAA =DD

tmr's cross country at macritchie. dont wanna go actually. grrs. anyways. today's wanting's birthday! and harry. ahahha my first crush yknow.. but i dont know wheres he now. sleepy now. see ya all. (: love.

the event dinner and dance 2oo5 was finally over! yeah.. the committee members' efforts were finally paid off.. especially junfeng. he's the one doing those major stuffs and all. and gave us meetings. wells. arrived at chevrons at about 3. then went to play arcade as we need to gather at the ballroom at 4. after that started to do stuffs. shant go into details. we girls went to do our make-up and all.. and about 6plus. some of the people arrived. met seniors and teachers! most of them i dont know.. its like the oldest batch was 1992 (?!) didnt get to make new friends thou.. maybe theres one or two. i fear balloons.. i dare to touch and nothing else. and my committee members sabo-ed me. grrrs. and i was being called to go up the stage during one of the games and its something got to do with BALLOONS?! wth. its a game which was like.. moving the balloon with your guy-partner up and down.. last was moving the balloon to the guy's butt? lols. okay la.. it was fun. the next one we sabo-ed see zhong. dressed up as a lady! bugis-street pageant! ahahaha. oh yes. i met up with darlink! my batch.. except for the committee members.. theres like only collen, lizhen, tony and junwei. jessica was the youngest of all. took many pics too. chatted with mrs ang lots. and of course ms tan wah chin! yes she was there! so happy to see her. ((: ms lee was there too.. yupps. i love them!

event ended at 11pm.. and something really bad happened. shant talk about it. dad and sis was waiting for me at the entrance so yeah.. got home just before 12. slept at 2.30am.. i was really tired! urgh..

as for today. chatted with my mum about poly and jc stuffs. its so hard to decide. um. hafta rush thru my assignments.. didnt do my tutorial at all kaes. aunt and cousins gonna come later. school's tmr. sigh.

rested at an area.. and they played. its like trying to throw everybody into the sea. gosh. serene, queen and i stayed at the bench. so poor thing. everyone's wet! booohooo. had lots of fun. jialing was the victim.. shes so innocent kaes. and she fell into their trick! so shes totally wet and yeah. for goodness lahs. she's wearing white pants. the guys were like damn evil. Q%#%@$#$#@ =X then roxanne came. we went back to the rental shop.. sherene and ee nian came. and remembered that 'UNCLE' i mentioned above? ahhas. he's like staring at me and said this to me, 'ILL NEVER FORGET YOU ONE!' =| and i was like 'sorry lahh..' and he said he was joking. lols. luckily he was joking.. else.. -cant imagine-

hongwei, serene and cheryl left. so the rest of us WALKED to the food centre which was like EXTREMELY far away from the place we were. walked for like 30mins.. most of us had fried oyster for dinner.. and satays etc. took pics and played a lil game. laureen left first cause her dad was there. then jialing, jilyn and i left as jilyn's dad came to fetch us. so reached home at about 10.30. thanks to her dad. else i wont be reaching home so early kaes. im so exhausted.. tedious task would be on tmr. -shrugs. oh yesyes. OG2 ROCKS! ((:

econs tutorial was fun. we had activity in the hall and its like super hilarious! each group was given some 'resources' and was asked to make models. and my group didnt manage to get the things ready.. no one wants to trade with us.. and we ended up drawing on the paper. its like very pathetic. and mrs tan awarded the points to each group after we presented our things.. guess what! we won (?!) we were stunned k. cus our stuffs were like very pathetic.. and we just drew on the paper while the rest of the groups made models of buildings etc. we made everyone laugh too.. cause our 'models' were funny? like a casino.. we cut and wrote a casino word on it? and safari we drew animals on the paper?! but we had lots of fun. hahaa. im sure everyone enjoyed the tutorial =)

didnt go for dance prac. im really confused.. should i give up my passion? i dont feel happy at all k. i dont really feel comfortable being there. i just dont know what i really want.. im thinking of joining jjc. its not i dont like sa. sighs. confided in reyner.. he encouraged me going jjc. or maybe i should go poly? -shrugs. i dont feel comfortable with this.. im not happy at all. what should i do. im now thinking if i should quit dance. should i give up my favourite? amy told me to quit since im not happy.. why wanna suffer for these few months? ):

saw mr koh too. he looks tired.. guess because he's studying at night for his masters degree and teaching in the day. then mr tan hk.. hahas always that funny. saw his desk got a pic of him which wrote, 'ying jun xiao sa de chen xing gui lao shi'. i was like *AHEMS lor. then mrs emily tan, mrs thong, mr nazri and a new teacher bought sa funfair tickets from me. how nice! =D most of them paid but didnt want the ticket.. so i passed it all to mrs tan. (: taught melody maths.. actually kelvin was helping out too. saw winnie, darrick, weiwen and all. hahas. yeahhs nice seeing them again. great friends around. had piano in the evening.. i think im changing all my exam pieces.. starting all over again. =/ im tired.. but i feel like staying up watching teevee. and im so angry with my sis now. she took my ring and hid it somewhere.. and she threw her temper at me when i wanna get back.. blamed me everything for it. wth.

it doesnt get any better. i hate life. i really do.

=DDD it has re-written singapore's football history! and yes! singapore FINALLY won tiger cup champion! i love lionel lewis! hahahas! he rocks lor. he was named the most valuable player! yeah he is.. he's great. lols. looks like singapore gonna party now. headline news will be all about singapore's championship. even magazines i suppose. cheers for SINGAPORE! =DD

stoned around in school.. relaxed at the student centre and went library.. and cafe. all the way till 12.45pm.. didnt go for the library talk.. heard attendance was taken. -shruggs. instead. went for og outing.. only a few of us though. went henderson cc and played badminton. i had a private training with daniel! lols! he's so pro. and im trying to catch up. xP hmm. tagged along with jonathan to the bball court to find jilyn and hongwei. then yeahs.. everyone went back to the badm. court.. had some dance prac with the girls. hafiz was really hilarious. he's like trying to learn chinese. he's like promoting chinese campaign lors. =/ its like he kept saying 'wo hen xi huan ni de pi gu' and etc. mwahahahaa damn funny kaes. everyone laughed like mad. (: headed back with weini and michelle.. while the rest went tiong bahru plaza.

ahh my legs are aching. tmr there's dance prac too. i hope theres no prac on sat. needta go bank and also shopping! my schedule seems tight. tsk.

civics time.. xiaoxin and i discussed about funfair with the class. im his assistant cg so yeah. then went to dance studio right after that. had dance audition. theres two combination.. the first combination.. i really messed it up. its funky dance.. the second one really tried hard to learn the steps, which non-funky one. it wasnt really successful.. but no matter what.. i guess ill still strive on. yeahs.. thats my passion for dance. anyways. the audition results will be announced tmr. the instructor dont wanna announce today cause hes afraid he might be beaten up by someone? lol. even if this is so. if its unsuccessful, i'll still be in danceworks. if successful would be in syf. (=

rushed back home cause dismissal ended late. bathed once i got home and right after that, had my piano lessons. my fingers hurt me lots cause the skin like came out or smth.. but managed to play still. so after lessons.. hafta time to rest. dad talked to me.. okay i admit i was real sad after the talk. i can like cry in a second.. perhaps i was really tired so i react in such a way. and whats more. unhappiness happens after that.. its like going worse.. thats something i really cant take it.. i thought 2oo5 would be better.. but i guess i was wrong. i feel that when i try not to give up on it, it'll always make things worse. but fortunately. as i met such obstacles. i learn, i grow. and yeah so im able to take things easily lars. just need a lil time bah. even if its like this. i realised.. i've becoming more and more sensitive to those stuffs. shant say what it is.. but yah. my same old problem. ahh shant talk alr.. else ill feel.. yeahh..(:

anyways. i cant wait to upload the pics i took with my OG group. hahhaa. especially jonathan cute face! MWAHAHAHAA. its so cute. -pinch

okay i know i havent been updating. got in sajc and was busy and tired so didnt have the time to use computer. i dont know what to update here actually. i didnt get through my faculty appeal. and yeah. i got into 4 A lvls subjects comb. same class as amy! yeahs. at least theres a friend same class with me. =DD but but. i dont like it. blah. dont think ill choose sa again. its like so far when its gonna shift to potong pasir? no idea. hmms. i love my og group? haha. hongwei and jonathan are two funny guys. cus my group only got 4 guys. how pathetic. =/ and we girls always ask hongwei to do things. lols. but too bad yesterday group gathering cant make it. wells. tmr's finale till 8.30pm. im gonna feel tired. its like i dont have enough sleep and always yawn in school. =| anyways. sa is pretty fun. we had dances like lindy hop, indian dance and chicken dance? hahahaa. okay its great. and im gonna join dance society! many many cheers and all sorts of games. i came home with muddy shoes today! mwahahaha. met kor just now too and i showed him my PRETTY SHOES! okay nonsense. im gonna sleep now. dont think ill update as often as usual alr. its like everyday after school im half dead. theres still chalet this week. and next week too. and need to plan for dinner and dance 2oo5? gosh. im tired.

yesterday was mum's birthday. today was her chinese birthday. haha. happy birthday mummy. love.